What a Morning

I was planning on waking up this morning and making a yummy breakfast and enjoying a relaxing day. Instead I woke up to blood.

Yep. I went in to the bathroom for my morning ritual and to my shock and horror, I was bleeding.

I woke up Brad, 5:30am, and we contemplated what to do? The more I thought about it, the more I panicked. I had spotted just a brown color twice in the last two weeks, but this was RED.

So I called the hotline. She said I didn't need to do anything till I was soaking a pad an hour... So what you're saying is just wait to do anything until you know for sure you're miscarrying? I don't think so. Stupid nurse. She obviously doesn't care about my baby.

I told her I'd like to go to Urgent Care, so she gave us an address, they opened at 7am.

So we woke up my kind parents, dropped the kids off, and drove to Portland...

Took quite some time but they did an uncomfortable exam, took blood, and then my favorite part of the day... Ultrasound!!!

Baby is alive, he even waved Hi to us and sucked his thumb :) (see picture) His heart was beating at the normal range. I was so relieved. I told Brad, at least we got a $50 ultrasound!

Thanks to prayers and a Priesthood Blessing, baby is alive and well. I'm still spotting, turns out I'm anemic, but they couldn't find anything else wrong. I'm going to call my Doctor on Monday and get some more blood tests done. It's so unnerving, I'm 12 weeks now, I shouldn't be bleeding. So your prayers are greatly appreciated. What a day.

Update, 12 weeks...

I'm 12 weeks now! Can you believe it? Next week I'll be in my 2nd Trimester! I'll post a picture soon when I have the energy to put on some makeup and do my hair :). I definitely have a little belly. I can't fit into any of my pants, at all. I'm doing the whole rubberband around the button thing but today I decided that I may have graduated from that, as it left a nice red indent in my belly today. Geesh! Thankfully my pants I ordered from target that are drawstring arrived today. Hallelujia! I really do hate this in between stage. Today I feel completely lowzy, but that's because I have a cold. For the most part I'm doing pretty well now. I can't walk around or stay on my feet for a long time, but it's not bad at all. I'll post pictures soon. I'm going to try to do pics every Sunday if I can start remembering :) And in case you wanted to know what we're having, still don't find out for sure (although I'm sure it's a boy) until December. Thanks for reading!

Dream Come True

Most of you already know, but there may be some that subscribe to this and not Facebook or my other blog. We are expecting a little bundle of joy! It's been a super long journey. 8 years almost exactly, and I'm so happy to finally be on this end of it. It's really hard to believe honestly. Every morning I wake up I have to remind myself that its real. It's a little easier to believe its real every time I wake up at 3am to use the restroom, or when I have to undo my pants button... but it was really nice today to have an ultrasound with the doctor and see that he is moving around and that his heart is beating. Such a relief. I say "He" because I firmly believe he is a he. I had a vision of my little baby boy about 7 years or so ago and I had another confirmation at my very first ultrasound when I found out that I'm not having twins, that this was a fulfillment of that vision I had 7 years ago. So I will heretofore refer to him as a he and until I confirm that in December, that will be how it is. Going through the fertility process is so interesting. I felt like I had a good head on my shoulders when we finally got down to the actual process of In Vitro, and I'm really grateful. It was only through my relationship with my Heavenly Father that I was able to have confidence in the whole process and know that although I don't know the reason for all these things, I DO know that I'm doing what he wants me to do, and that is all that really matters. I knew that if for some CRAZY reason that it didn't work, that I wouldn't be letting him down, and I wouldn't be letting myself down, because I was doing what he wanted me to do, and that's all I needed. But every time I had a doubt and I prayed that everything would work, I always heard this voice in my head saying, "It's going to work." And so, I trusted. And even the last few days when I had doubts creep in that something bad happened and the baby stopped growing or that he wasn't there anymore (normal fears by the way), I still had that trust and knowledge that whatever happens with this baby is completely up to God. It's his child after all, I'm just housing him in my belly for 9 months and then I get to have the opportunity to be his mother and take care of him, but he's God's Child, not mine. So as long as I do my part, and do everything in my power to make sure I'm healthy, and doing everything I can, the rest is up to God and I'll trust it is how it's supposed to be. My little man was moving all around today, he still looks like an alien, he looks like a little alien, but he's adorable, and I couldn't be happier.

Long time no See

I saw a dear friend of mine, Traci Hammond at Kid's Fun and Fitness yesterday and she reminded me that I haven't updated my blog in forever. So I thought I'd do that really quickly. I get on facebook so often now that I have a hard time keeping up with my blog. Anyway, here's a few things I've worked on recently that will help update you on our lives. Go ahead and comment if you even read my blog. I figured no one reads my blog anymore, so if I get enough comments, I may start blogging again :)